YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND YOU NEVER WILL

“Why not” jayne said following her up the stairs “Because you don’t feel what I feel” jazz said almost shouting at him when she was walking she tripped on the stairs and he caught her and for a spit second they looked into each other eyes and she could feel he’s heart beat under he’s dirty shirt covered in mud He put her down slowly “Are you ok” he’s said in a gruff voice like he didn’t care She sat down on the top of the stairs and watched everything that was happening in the cargo bay Kaylee was washing the mule with help from river and Simon they were having so much fun. They were so far up on the stairs that they couldn’t hear what Simon and Kaylee were saying but River knew what they were saying and she giggled to her self, River looked up at jazmyn and she also looked at Jayne. And they left Jayne sat down beside her “What don’t I feel” he said looking at her “You don’t feel what I feel and you never will” “I have felt the way you are felling now” Jayne said not looking at her “No you haven’t jayne” “No I have, my sister died” “let me tell you a story Jayne about a girl who was 15 years old and she had a great life she had 4 older brothers 1older sister and 2 younger brothers and her family was great her mother had a sprit of a eagle that seemed to soar and had laughter that was infectious And one day on her way back from Arial her ship was taken by Niska and he’s henchmen she was sport for then for them to do what they would with her, jazz paused and Jayne looked at her and she continued with there story “The girls family never stoped looking they looked every star that the night star could show them he looked for a year and he never lost hope that one day he would find he’s wife and the mother of he’s kids. When Niska had finished violating her mother and beating her to an inch of her life and then stoping he left her on a desert planet where no one came ever but her farther stoped on the planet because she was feeling space sick” she stoped and thought of the memory “the only reason she survived was because she was feeling sick and they landed on this planet and by a miracle they found her mother” “do you know that the first thing she thought of when she saw here mother laying there on the ground was that her sprit and her infectious smile had gone then she felt compassion and then sadness and only after them she felt happy. A year after that she was 16 and her mother was never the same again but 6 moths after her 16th birthday her mum became sick in the mornings and then when she was getting bigger and bigger she knew that her mum was pregnant because life was inside her. When she was helping her mum with some knitting she grabbed her hand and put it to her stomach and I felt something kicked and then it did it again she looked at her mother and she smiled and she saw her mothers sprite come back and her mothers smile never left her face after that moment it was like she was reborn the smile didn’t even leave her face when she was giving birth to her twin brother and sister we were coming back from one of the hospitals on the core planets. Her brothers and sister were playing hide and seek on the ship back from the core planets back to Boros. She was playing hide and seek and she was hiding in the air ducks her sister said it was the best place to hind so she did” “so what happened after that” Jayne said not looking at her but looking at he’s shoes “Reavers, happened jayne” she said looking at him “But I thought that Reavers didn’t leave survivors?” “They don’t, I died a thousand times that day the girl I use to be died that day”