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River's Diary: Part Four.
Wednesday, April 20, 2011

part four of the diary of River Tam, some years after the events in the BDM.


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stop fighting no  go  can’t get out of my head. I’m trapped, trapped here, three dimensional physical representation of the whole, affected by four no no too ineffective could be better. should be better. shouldn’t be stuck, nothing holding me in, but the more I try the harder it gets. can’t tell Simon, he’ll think I’ve slipped, gone off the deep end. theoretically possible. astral projection, shaman, shamaning? can’t remember doesn’t matter. should be able too, meditation, belief, it's all in the belief, belief in self is belief in others, not a Hindu, empirical data supporting the claim of rebirth is weak at best, but I believe in the possibility of the evidence presented being real. should be enough.

Captain wants me to stop muttering again.

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Moonside. can’t hear the stars the clouds too thick so quiet can’t see myself think. River’s like a pond, pond becomes mirror disappears in the blackness. It’s quiet outside of me tonight inside still a buzz more softly now. doesn’t echo as much as in space in space nowhere for their heads to go but in. dirt’s much better, softens voices, dull roar. easier to be River.

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Malcolm Reynolds Dream. sea greens sea blues dog tags, cat naps. friendly Shadows family farm soft voices soft hair quiet days no war. it’s like I’m almost there.

the Cap’n don’t sleep less we’re neath  the sky again. -River

_________________________ paradox wings of death shadowy eyes /follows same path don’t fall again/ rivers of brown coats of blood haunting /fighting differently still fighting same war/ don’t wanna be trusted but won’t ever betray. paradox.

Zoe’s turn to do the dishes tonight. __________________________

Surprise.

pizza tonight ( H2O,  Saccharomyces cerevisae, powdered wheat, oil of  Olea europaea, Sodium Chloride, Sucrose, Lycopersicon esculentum, Heiphinic wotis, stir, mix, spread, bake, cut, serve ) Kaylee's special surprise, comes with announcement, ( secret, special, nervous, happy, sneaky with Simon) hiding it all day, secrets making my head hurt, happy when it stops, unless there's yelling.  I hate yelling. means Family's not right, everybody angry, no place for River to be. but no yelling tonight, just soft soft, happys, warm fuzzy clouds, peaceful night, everything's A ok Cap'n, no need to fret.

she said yes.

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The Announcement.

Simon standing nervous shaking don't know what to say. Kaylee beaming promised won't tell I know anyway. words, shock, thrill, happiness, a little confusion from Jayne. going on 3 years, 4 months, 2 days, thought he didn't know. They're wrong. Cap'n knows, always knows, just don't interfere. behave like a bear to hide the cub, teddy bear with Inara, can't resist happy Kaylee.

I get to have a Jie Jie now. -River.

-You can read River's new entries everyday  at riversdiary.tumblr.com or find us on FaceBook under Rivers Diary-

many a warm and fuzzy thanks to Greenka61 for being my helpful and prompt Beta :) I hope we can work together again! - Ji  

COMMENTS

Thursday, April 21, 2011 11:30 AM

AMDOBELL


My favourite stream of consciousness piece is the second one, Moonside. This sounds like classic River and very nicely done. Ali D :~)
"You can't take the sky from me!"

Sunday, April 24, 2011 11:07 PM

JANE0904


I like Mal's dream - mornings that have had those those of nights probably mean he doesn't want to get out of bed. Please continue with these.

Monday, April 25, 2011 12:27 PM

MYOWNKNIGHT


I live to serve :) I actually really enjoyed the chance to write a section reminding people that Mal had a life before the War, and that he's managed to makea new one after it with his Family/ Crew.

Sunday, May 8, 2011 5:26 PM

RIVERTAM1


Sixth instalment!!!!! too good!

Sunday, May 8, 2011 5:29 PM

MYOWNKNIGHT


lol working on it right now. about 1.4 /3 done. to quote a classic, as you wish!

Sunday, July 31, 2011 12:18 PM

TRAINBANDIT


"the Cap’n don’t sleep less we’re neath

the sky again."

I love that. Says so much.


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