Can't stop the signal...
Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Well, apparently you can.

My best friend from college is in the midst of a breakdown, and I swear she's going to take me down with her. She's pretty naiive, which is kind of shocking to me since she's been through as much shit in life as I have (if not more), and I've been trying to help guide her through the minefield that is life as we know it. And she asks me to do this, but she doesn't listen. It just doesn't get through. I don't know if it's me not being clear or what. It aint getting through, though. Something in her is just filled up with "I can't" and a million reasons why she can't. She thinks she's the only one who has to fight and struggle, that somehow everyone else has a shiny time of it. She's the only one who is overwhelmed with life and what has to be done to survive it. I keep trying to tell her that aint so. I keep encouraging and hacking at the jungle around her. I don't know what else to do. I know I can't do it for her. I've got my own shit to deal with. How do you help somebody who thinks they can't be helped? I'm doing my damnedest to be understanding and supportive, but it's all I can do not to just grab her by the neck and shake her til her head rattles. Maybe that'd help her see the way to help herself. Somehow, I don't think that's the best answer. It's just the best I can come up with off the cuff. My frustration level is way high right now. I mean, what the fuck do you have to do to get through to people?


Monday, August 10, 2009 4:44 PM


I know...Lord knows people deal enough with my's just frustrating as hell to know what needs to be done and not be able to do it. I'm used to taking action, and I can't do it here. I'm full aware that it is impossible to save everyone, and that sometimes you can't even save yourself, but I wish the universe would stop shoving the point down my throat. I get it already.

Course, if I wish in one hand & shit in the other...well, we all know which is gonna fill up first...

Thursday, July 23, 2009 3:56 PM


just listen and nod and realize that being a friend is learning to deal with each other's bullshit now and again....


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