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24 Hour Update
Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Well, I finally handed in my two things. I feel more exhausted than relieved.

And the gal I asked out for coffee for after Xmas, she said yes to the coffee.

But no to the implication. Turns out, she already has a boyfriend.

To tell you the truth, I wasn't really surprised by the response. I find that a lot of women I'm attracted to in my classes tend to have boyfriends already. Whether or not this is actually true, I leave unanswered.

And even though I've been cruising around lavalife and thinking about writing them a check to expand my membership, I've been thinking about just throwing in the towel over the whole dating thing. School hasn't actually been a really good place to find women for me. I think the idea of picking someone up at the bar is an obsolete ideal, since everyone seems to go to the bar for everything EXCEPT finding someone. I tried internet dating, but the only gals who accept my e-mails for invites normally weigh twice as much as me. Every successive date I've had has slimmed down a bit, but their weight still digs into my belt buckle when we watch something on tv. And the last one was a suicidal divorcee, so she was really cheery. I know this sounds sexist, but come one. Wouldn't you like to go ot with someone whose at least fit and doesn't run the risk of crushing you when you're on the couch watching something?

I hear about how often you find the right person when you're not looking, but I'm always unclear about it. Do you just say "I am no longer looking for someone." and just do nothing? I think by stating the above, you ruin your chances since your "not looking" is actually looking in a way. And if you do truly just give up and just focus on other things in your life, don't you run the risk of being some loser who spends his life in front of a computer or a tv screen?

I spent my summer filming people declaring their love for one another. Everywhere I go, I see classmates who are happy couples and shit like that. For once, I'd like to experience that. Not just for sex, I've done that already, but for intimacy and for closeness. I'm tired of watching. I want to experience it for real.

I know I sound like a whiny bitch, but is it too much to ask?

COMMENTS

Thursday, December 1, 2005 5:41 AM

CYBERSNARK


I feel your pain/exhasperation on the "she's got a boyfriend" thing. I went to University in Ottawa, the city of over a million, with no single/available women in the whole lot.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005 9:49 PM

GEDEON


Yeah, I hear you. I'm a loser on that front. And I don't have classmates to check out. Try picking women up in building that has four employees...

Maybe you could try you hand at a fanfic. You may never post, but you might vent stuff in the process. Do a River falls in love episode.

Take care and stay busy.


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