The Crush
Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Mal/River Just a little fic I found on my laptop. I wrote it about 9-10 months ago and I don't think I posted it here. PG-13 for brief sexual thoughts on Mal's part.


Mal was trapped. There was no escape in a spaceship out in the Black and at least a week away from any inhabitable planet or moon.

SHE was there all the time and his only escape was his bunk at night and only then because he locked the hatch. He was sure though that she could open it any time she wanted.

It had started innocently enough, little glances his way through the long, dark hair. She thought he hadn't noticed but they were sort of hard to hide, them being together a lot of the time. Then the outright oggling. That was mighty terrifyn'.

When ever he's in the vicinity she has a silly, crooked, school girl grin on her face. She shifts her weight from foot to foot and absently twirls her long hair on a finger and looked at him with stars in her eyes.

The long days became torture because he had no idea how to handle this. Fighting, captaining, and stealing he knew. Relatively newly sane seventeen year old girls with raging hormones and a fixation on her substitute father were as foreign to him as high tea on Londium. Escape to his locked bunk was his only option.

The crew didn't help any. Jayne just stood there and sniggered when ever he saw the moon brain mooning over her Captain. Jayne seemed glad that River had, in her genius way, picked Mal instead of him. His amusement increased as Mal became more and more uncomfortable in River's presence.

Zoe kept giving him knowing, yet sympathetic smiles. Kaylee was as sunny as usual. She was in love, so all the world was in love and she was no help at all. She kept Simon occupied most evenings, not that any one was listening and Inara had left again.

Not that River couldn't turn a man's head. Oh, no. Her slim,lithe body and dancer's grace drew him in like an moth to a flame. And it would be just as combustible. She'd trap him in a web and he wouldn't want to get out it, never ever.

He shook his head to get the erotic visions out of it. He was at least twice her age; she was young enough to be his daughter; she was going through a natural psychological process; Simon would kill him, very, very slowly and painfully. The list grew as he tried to convince himself that it wasn't worth it.

But as always, his nether regions thought otherwise and he took care of it as best he could. It was going to be another long night, just like last night and the ones to come.


Wednesday, September 16, 2009 10:48 PM


This made me smile. Mal trying to keep away from River as much as he can and his crew no gorram help at all! Oh, those hormones have so much to answer for. Ali D :~)
"You can't take the sky from me!"

Thursday, September 17, 2009 3:29 AM


Well now, you know this couple is near and dear to my heart! And it's lovely to see some fic from you. You've been dearly missed here. Welcome home! :)

Thursday, September 17, 2009 3:59 AM


Ew, sorry, lust and having feelings for someone, like caring for them, are two different things, this was a disappointment because that wasn't established, and it should have been tagged Mal/River. I thought it was about his childhood again, like you've written before.

silly me

Thursday, September 17, 2009 6:15 AM


It would be really super-sweet of you if you could give a pairing warning. Just to avoid unpleasant surprises for readers. Thanks!

Thursday, September 17, 2009 6:17 AM


I'm a Mal/Inara shipper myself, but this was well done. Don't let 'em get you down, sweetie.

Thursday, September 17, 2009 6:31 AM


All we are asking is that it is tagged properly, so we don't click on something we don't usually read.

And, malgalfan, you may be a Mal/Inara writer, but I'm fairly sure you're not a shipper;)

Thursday, September 17, 2009 6:32 AM


Sorry about not tagging it. Done it now. I've been under the influence of drugs for the past couple of days due to the flu.

Thursday, September 17, 2009 7:08 AM


No worries, ncbrowncoat, hope you feel better and thanks for the tag, and yeah, some of us old time Christian puritan fans still get tweeked by the thought of Mal and River.

Thursday, September 17, 2009 2:26 PM


cute, so when you going to write a series of fics to go along with this?

Thursday, September 17, 2009 2:53 PM


I think this is a very plausible scenario. With Inara gone and River reading Mal, of course she is going to pick up on his feelings. And age has never stood against forming a relationship in the history of mankind.

Friday, September 18, 2009 12:04 AM


Not sure of this requiring a tag at all. There is no actual pairing unless one delves within their own psyche to make one. It is actually a Mal/Mal (or self/self) pairing in actuality. Many folk go through this non-dilemma daily from input sexual and otherwise. Great character and being formulation. The psycho-sexual feel is uncomfortable for some because it is too close to reality. That is true writing many cannot achieve in as many lines.

Friday, September 18, 2009 3:59 AM


Thanks for tagging, ncbrowncoat. :) I really hope I didn't make you feel bad with my request. Do get well soon!

Saturday, September 19, 2009 5:20 PM


I loved it very well done and yep poor Mal not far to run on a spaceship. Would love to see more of this idea.


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