Thursday, June 21, 2007

Angst ahoy. Simon and Kaylee need to talk.


Job Satisfaction

A/N: Well, here it is. Please don’t kill me! Remember, sequel on the wayyyyyyyyyyyy….. And, apologies for the formatting, which has all of a sudden messed itself up on ALL my fics (but apparently, no one else’s, thanks!) So if it’s messed up on this one… sorry. LOL.

Chapter Ten

To see translations, hover mouse over Chinese word.


He found her on the beach, sitting with her toes in the waves, gazing out to sea. He approached her softly, not wanting to scare or disturb her. Her hair was whipping round her head in the strong wind, and he could see silent tears forming rivers down her face. He coughed softly.


At his voice, she frantically wiped her face on her sleeve before turning to look up at him.

“What d’ya want, Simon?”

There was no anger in her voice, just disappointment and sadness, and Simon found himself wishing she would shout at him, punch him, even. Anything but that disappointment.

“Kaylee,” he said again, “We… we need to talk.”

She turned away again, watching the waves. “Ain’t nothing to talk about.”

He knelt at her side, and she flinched visibly, but undeterred, he reached out and took her arm.

“Kaylee, please, you have to let me explain…”

“Explain what?” she snapped. “That you think everything that happened was my fault? That you’re just gonna toss me aside every time River needs you?”

“No!” Simon said, panicking. “It’s not like that!”

She snorted disbelievingly, and tore her arm from his grip.

“Please,” Simon said. “Kaylee, I am so sorry. What I said was unforgivable, I know, but you have to believe me, I didn’t mean it.”

More tears spilled from her eyes. “Yes you did. It’s probably the most honest thing you’ve ever said to me.”

“How can you say that? Kaylee, I screwed up, I know, but I will make it up to you.”

She shook her head. “Too late, Simon.”

“No,” he choked, “No, don’t say that.”

He cupped her face in his hands, holding her firmly in place so she couldn’t turn away.

“Listen to me, Kaylee. Just let me speak, okay?”

She nodded reluctantly, and Simon loosened his grip somewhat, before taking a deep breath.

“Ever since I met you … I haven’t treated you the way you deserve. I know that. I was rude, and when I wasn’t being rude I was too much of a wuss to ever follow through. But, you have to understand … I was depending on you. I didn’t even realize how much, but I was. You’re so … perfect, and I’ve done nothing to deserve you, and I don’t deserve a second chance, but if you give me one, I swear, Kaylee, I will get it right this time. I have to, because I think … I need you.”

“Simon,” she murmured, blinded by her own tears.

“Listen,” he insisted softly. “I was so scared that something would happen to River, that I would have failed her. Because ever since I left Osiris, she’s been the only thing stopping me from feeling useless. I know it’s no excuse. I don’t know why I took it out on you, maybe it was because you’d let me before. When you disappeared… I forgot all about River, Kaylee. All I could think about was you.”

“Simon,” she whispered, “I tried to tell you over an’ over that I wanted to help River too. You’re always so determined not to let anyone help you with her. I thought if I found her, you’d know I cared too.”

He closed his eyes. “So what changed?”

Kaylee shrugged. “I had a lot of time to think. I was scared, an’… I just don’t want anything like this to ever happen again.

“It won’t” he told her, but she didn’t respond.

“Kaylee, I…” Just say it. “I don’t know how this happened... I was trying so hard to stop it from happening… but I…”

I love you.

She pressed a finger to his lips before he could voice the words. His eyes met hers, and he knew, before she even opened her mouth what she was going to say.

“No,” he gasped, wanting to cover his ears.

She took his hands sadly. “I’m sorry, Simon. It just ain’t enough. I ain’t ever hurt like this before, and I just can’t face ever feeling like this again.”

“You won’t,” he breathed, “I promise.”

She shook her head. “We was just kiddin’ ourselves, Simon. It weren’t ever gonna work. How could it? We’re just too different.”

“Kaylee…” he protested, but she cut him off.

“You gotta look after River. It’s your job, remember. The most important one. You don’t got space inside for anyone else. And I gotta stop pretendin’. I was happy before you came along an’ I can be happy now.”

He watched, unable to speak, as she leaned in and placed a chaste kiss on his cheek, then stood.

“I accept your apology, Simon. And I ain’t mad at you for what you said. You’re forgiven. But it don’t change anything.”

She dropped his hands, and looked him in the eye once more.

“We’re over, Simon.”

Without another word, Kaylee turned and walked back towards Serenity, leaving a speechless Simon on the beach. She walked as fast as she could, silent tears streaming down her face, until he was too far away to hear. Then, with an anguished sob, she broke into a run, leaving Simon Tam as just a dot on the horizon behind her.

The end. Hope you enjoyed! Whether or not you did, please comment!


Thursday, June 21, 2007 2:24 PM


Wow, Blackbeanie is going to kill you.

I'm not going to get angry, only because there is a sequel. Apart from the sad, this was still a really good chapter. Fantastically written.

Thursday, June 21, 2007 3:20 PM


Wow, great ending, great fic. So glad there's a sequel.

Thursday, June 21, 2007 4:05 PM


Excellent work on this fic... That said, post the sequal soooooooooon!!!!!!!!!! (now isn't soon enough, the silee shipper in my wants blood)

Thursday, June 21, 2007 4:08 PM


While I do love Simon and Kaylee together, this is a nice change where it doesn't always end up with Simon saying he's sorry and Kaylee falling into his arms. Simon's gonna have to work extra hard to win Kaylee back.

Can't wait to read the sequel!

Thursday, June 21, 2007 11:23 PM



Did I read that correctly...

NOOOOOOO! Angest with no fluff ending!

A very good story, but I wanted Simon and Kaylee to get together again. Of course.
Really good but I'm gonna go cry to myself now.


Friday, June 22, 2007 12:51 AM


Thanks for all the comments, hehehe.

Blackbeanie's gonna kill me? Ahem, she KILLED Simon. KILLED HIM DEAD!

Friday, June 22, 2007 5:45 AM


Not sure I really buy Kylee's overreaction here. If she's not mature enough to deal with an arguement/misunderstanding, she shouldn't be in any kind of relationship. Seems a bit overdramatic. But, of course, that tends to be Kaylee's MO with regards to Simon.

The sequel should be appropriately tense, that's for sure.

Friday, June 22, 2007 4:38 PM


Something tells me Kaylee's reasoning is just a load of hogwash - she's doing this because of what Regan said. If I'm not mistaken, the Tam matriarch did imply that Simon and Kaylee would never work.

While I agree it's a bit immature on her part, if she's determined to leave Simon alone for his own good, there is a bit of nobility in that.

But the boy was going to confess his love for her ... that's gotta count for something.

I know it woulda shut me up!

Friday, June 22, 2007 8:49 PM


Sorry for the delay, been busy.

I'm not going to kill you. Until the sequel has been posted.
'Til then, great chapter, didn't see that angst coming.

Tuesday, June 26, 2007 4:03 PM


Wow...blackbeanie had mercy on ya. 'Tis a day to be noted on the calendars;D

Really, this was an awesome series and I will be damned to Book's Special Hell if this epilogue didn't have the plot twist that Joss & Co. would have pulled: Kaylee forgiving Simon of his trespasses but not forgetting...and walking away from their relationship. The reasoning is complete bullshit and totally motivated by Regan's damaging words to Kaylee, but Kaylee makes a valid point when she notes Simon is still too focused on River and her mental health to be able to give enough of himself over to her...or allow Kaylee in deep enough to see his pain and "uselessness." I do hope, however, that the eventual sequel will get this matter solved by the end;)


Saturday, October 1, 2011 6:43 PM


I know this is a few years old, but sequel? Please? Where Simon makes it up to Kaylee?


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Angst ahoy. Simon and Kaylee need to talk.

Things have to end, one way or the other. Simon takes aim, but can he pull the trigger? Action and Angst.

Vents are useful things. Mal plays the messenger boy, Simon learns how to be intimidating, and Jayne doesn’t take the hint. Big Damn Action ensues.

Regan plants the seed of doubt in Kaylee’s mind, while Jayne, Simon and River hatch a plan. A cunning hat and a girl with a gun? Yeah, this is gonna go great. Meanwhile, Mal rethinks his attitude to Simon.

Kaylee is in Regan Tam’s clutches, but all is not as it seems. River decides to clean up Simon’s mess. Mal clutches at straws, and Jayne clutches his big stick. Serenity has some visitors…and then she has some more.

Mal considers childproofing the ship when he discovers Simon and Jayne are gone. Regan makes some progress and Simon learns what it takes to buy a gun. As always, a little angsty, but not too much.

What’s going on? No one’s quite sure… Simon has some serious regrets and turns to an unusual source for comfort, and Mal is sick of the doctor causing trouble. More angst as the crew is being whittled down. S/K

When Simon has made his mind up on something, there’s no swaying him. And right now, he’s decided to be an idiot. Big Damn Angst, as the crew try to find the missing River.

Some people just can’t catch a break. Jayne thinks Simon had a deprived childhood, Wash is left out, Simon gets to go fishing and Kaylee has been waiting long enough. A little fluff, a little smut, and a whole lot of things going not smooth. R, I guess.

The crew decide to hide while figuring out their next move. Sun, sea and sand … all Kaylee is missing is her boyfriend. Simon is torn and River plays ‘I Spy.’ A good healthy mix of fluff and angst.