Entry for 6/29/2006 at 9:55:49 AM
Thursday, June 29, 2006

My mommy has come to the rescue once again. This is of course very depressing. Everytime I have to ask her for money I feel diminished.

Someone is playing my most favorite piece of music in the whole world - Pachelbel's Canon in D. It usually is so soothing, but today the beauty is just making me weepy.

You all must be so sick of my depressing self. I know I am.

I want to go home and go to bed, but I must go to the 2nd job tonight. I am just getting more and more resentful of the need for more than one job and that adds to the stress.

My heartrate is steady at about 130 beats a minute, which takes a lot of energy let me tell you!

BTW - drove by Ex's house because it amuses us to do so. He has a brand new car in the drive.

Must be nice.


Friday, June 30, 2006 4:07 AM


Well, I guess we'll just have to settle for hugs of comfort then, huh hot mom? =p

You've definitely got my vote!


Friday, June 30, 2006 3:01 AM



Hard to stop going by. He lives 2 doors away and I can see his drive from mine :(

13 you don't worry, and certainly do not engage in criminal arson! LOL

Tay - Thanks :)

MSG - start making a plan! LOL

Friday, June 30, 2006 2:41 AM


Don't let the need to have your mom help you out get you down, FMF. You're in a bad spot and it happens. I had to borrow money when I got divorced, too. I just wish *I* had the money to give you. I feel bad because I can't help =(

Canon in D is a pretty song, but it's definitely a situational thing. Most girls I know associate it with getting married for some reason, so that only makes it worse =p

Keep the chin up, girlie. You'll get through this. And if need be, then we'll make sure that *we* get you through this =) It's tough, but it will get so much better. And when it does, just think about how much more you're going to enjoy that feeling. I've convinced myself that we have bad times in life just to emphasize the wonder of the good things in life. That outlook has helped me a lot in times o' trouble.

For the record, my personal recommendation is to stop going by the ex's place. Completely. Don't deal with him in any way that you don't have to. I know you said that it's entertaining to you, but no good can really come of it. If he's doing well then it's going to piss you off. If he's doing poorly then you're going to relish in his suffering, and while he may deserve it you are better than that.

Eyes forward, working toward the good =)


Thursday, June 29, 2006 2:01 PM


I think we're probably all happy to hate him for you.

All the respect in the world for you, as usual.

Thursday, June 29, 2006 11:24 AM


Let's slash his tires AND his throat, Ms. G!

I'm pretty good with criminal arson, but other than that I'm powerless to your situation, and it makes me feel guilty and useless.

Thursday, June 29, 2006 10:10 AM


OK I repeat I will happily kill him for you. I have a masters in criminal psychology and enough forensics under my belt to do it without getting caught...oh come on let me kill him...please please...
however please get him to sign a large life insurance policy first so you can get some dough :) Mostly kidding here...but HUGS I wish we could help you...


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