"Merciful God"
Monday, February 13, 2006

River Tam at Miranda, pleading to God to make her a stone. "Merciful God" depicts this highly dramatic scene, where my poor, helpless River, who can't not feel, is forced to feel for 30 million dead people! It always touches me profoundly, as I feel myself overwhelmed with sorrow for what they did to my dearest little one. :( *cry* I'm not an artist, btw. I just Love River Tam. Intensely. That is my justification.



Monday, February 13, 2006 7:05 AM


Very nice! Love that you varied the fonts, and very good use of the miranda pic in the background. Good on ya. Keep playing. May I suggest the use of brushes and stock images...I rarely make one without them now lol.

Monday, February 13, 2006 9:49 AM


Wow, Asarian, good work! It's lovely!

Monday, February 13, 2006 11:44 AM


It's beautiful!!! I feel the same way about this scene - it cuts me deep... You have captured this sOo well!!!

Monday, February 13, 2006 12:04 PM


I take exception to your statement that you are not an artist. Not true

Monday, February 13, 2006 12:06 PM


ooh tis indeed a great one

Monday, February 13, 2006 1:21 PM


I put this on my desktop and after just glancing at it three times I'd gotten teary!! It's beautiful, well captured. Must...change...wallpaper...

Monday, February 13, 2006 2:35 PM


Beautiful Job, can't wait to see your next post!

Saturday, February 18, 2006 8:10 AM


Hey Anonymous (,

I really enjoyed your contribution in my blog. Your story about cave people was very funny and equally to the point. :) You're right: posters that like are drawn by and marketed for teenage boys! And miramel was right, too: her face was probably heavily digitally edited and I shudder to call her River even.

Thank you also for the link to more River fanvids! :) As I just said to ShadowChild, consider Asarian's first Law of non-diminishing returns: there's no such thing as too much River! :)

About that "hauntingly powerful shot of River looking at the burning swing," I tried to do something with it; hope you like it. With what everything River had to go through, I am, in the strictest sense, not sure that it represented the end of innocence, per se, so much as it marks the end of illusion. What had been premonitions and/or memories of Miranda up until that point, suddenly became an undeniable reality for River. Like the scene is trying to tell us: all possible doubt River might have had about the possible gruesomeness at Miranda, really went up into smoke there. A Kaylee devotee, I venture to speculate, might find the same symbolism in the picture of the dead little boy, and Kaylee's expression along with it.

Hey, if you have more ideas for themes, just let me know. :) Just River stuff, of course.

P.S. I really hope you'll be able to get your own FireFly account soon; then I can return the favor, and write something nice back in your blog, for a change. :)


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N.B. A improved redo of an earlier work. I removed the text balloon, and significantly cleaned up the 'embrace' scene and various other small changes and fixes.

P.S. Right-click and 'save' to get the original-size image.

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in the same vein as piratenews has been posting.

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