Not a drunken flashback
Thursday, May 31, 2007

First posted at Myspace:

Thursday, May 31, 2007

No folks this ain't a drunken flashback.
Current mood: okay

Shadow of Pomagranate Bloom

Needed rest from fitful dreaming


Despite twilight haze to wakened eye

Breath in berth, deep and languid

warm slither and squeeze on soft low back

Slow pulse awaken spirit

For mornings cool touch spirit of earthen warmth

Reaching coils sharing the lost day

Resting sensual blindness upon shoulders


pulled to restless depth

So the other night I had fell asleep waiting for a friend to come over and something really started twisting my sleep. Waking several times I finally gave in and jotted the piece down through tired eyes. I could feel something reaching from the ground and wrapping around my middle. As it moved it felt like a large tentacle. Warm in spirit and meaning no harm. Almost as if it were sharing some inexplicable information that I needed to understand. Some of the feeling still lingers in the sunlight, but I mostly feel it during the evening workout. A sort of insulation to the fire way down deep. Not knowing what it was isn't all that bothersome. And the why isn't all too much of a mystery.

There are things happening and I'm in preperation for some bad stuff. What? I'm not really sure. But something tells me to be ready. My mind, body, soul, and heart have been sick for a very long time. There seemingly has been no offer to help me fix these things. But I feel I may have missed some chances at fixing stuff along the way. So far I've worked on wind and strength, I've been reading at every chance I get, taken time to disappear and spend some real time with myself outside of the thoughts of others, and I've thought alot of the future and what I want.

Really I have no answers. But it feels like I can be a little more accepting to the answers I do get. A friend recently commented on how he is inspired by the strength of my character. I have to take this as an answer to a question rolling in my head for a while.

Does anyone even notice that I am here?

Currently listening :
Greatest Hits '93-'03
By 311
Release date: By 08 June, 2004


Monday, June 4, 2007 7:17 AM


I notice that you are here. It makes for a happier place to be!

Friday, June 1, 2007 6:25 AM


Interesting stuff, nvg. Don't know what to make of it though;)


Thursday, May 31, 2007 9:26 AM


Sounds like we're two of a kind. I think it'll get better, at least that's what people tell me.

Thursday, May 31, 2007 8:25 AM


Hey I think you're incredible. You're always there for anyone who needs you. You work with the toughest kids and do them a world of good both through action and example. You think deeply and act thoughtfully and most of all, you are a good and decent man ( which is AMAZING because there are so few in this world)


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