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In Which the Steamer Goes Home and Rethinks His Life
Thursday, May 10, 2007

Title aside, I did not get mind-tricked into performing it. But I did get home a little while ago and reread everybody's comments on my last blog. First of all - yinyang, your apology is gladly accepted and tucked safely into the inside pocket of my brown coat. I think what's needed here, though, is a little bit of clarification on why I said what I said.

Yeah, look, here's what it is: Every time I post something like that, whether it's here or on LJ or Myspace, whether it's a blog entry or a community post, somebody always pops up and says, Don't give up! Ever am I embroiled in trying to drill it into my own brain pan that whatever happens happens and a much greater being than myself has control over it. At the same time though, logic and experience vie to influence my perception of the future. Logic says, You shouldn't give up, you should sit back, concentrate on something else and let it take its course. Experience says, For-fucking-get about it, you're just setting yourself up for more misery if you ever try again. More often than not, it's the voice of experience that gets amplified by such an occurrence as being rejected out of hand (sometimes just because I'm a virgin!), seeing my sister's happy family, or really, almost any time I cross paths with a happy couple.

I always say that life has to be balanced - hurt with happiness, the strait of life before the peace of death. Still looking for the answer to why the hurt/happiness scale insists on tilting so sharply in the former direction.

So I hope that clarifies things a little. Now I'm gonna go do something else, like write....

COMMENTS

Friday, May 11, 2007 10:36 AM

BLUEEYEDBRIGADIER


Well...I would like to say that life is unfairly tipped towards pain on the hurt/happiness scale because it will shift to all kinds of unbelievable happiness in the future. However, that's speculation:(

Still...let it be said there's nothing wrong with being a virgin. To prove I have no shame, I will now make the following honest announcement: I am a virgin too. I have loved, I have lost and I know what it feels like to have the brain advocating one thing and the heart another. So know you are not alone and that there are people who know how it feels to be in the same boat;)

BEB

Friday, May 11, 2007 2:47 AM

CONSTANCE


Well.. Im just gonna wish you a nice day. Im not that good with pseudo wisdom, so ill leave that to those who are. Have a shiny day :) you can get a hug too if you want :)

Thursday, May 10, 2007 2:43 PM

ALLIETHORN7


Here is my slightly cryptic, yet strangely poetic, words of pseudo-wisdom-
That which we seem not to posess, and that others hold in a false abundance, tastes all the sweeter since we can not feel nor taste the fruits of what they have wrought. Nay, tis but False Pretense; Those that seem happier are, forsooth, mostly but hollow inside. That facade put upon so greiviously and painfully for friends, that which we always see- what is it, but dust and wind? That which we see with our eyes, we hold as true- even though it may not be so. Very, very few have found the happiness they seek; merely, they take what they find. So fear not; what may seem as only your problem, it is truly the burden of all mankind. Have faith, friend, for what you fight is all there ever was.
Now, I'm done being all poetical-like.
Cheers, mate, and stay strong!

-Danny

Thursday, May 10, 2007 12:14 PM

LITTLEALBATROSS29


I hope you figure out what you want , Steamer.It's so hard to listen to experience & have faith at the same time.I have found that the hurt always outweighs the happiness.I think it's so we can appreciate the happiness and beauty that much more :)


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