The Fluctuations of Life
Monday, April 30, 2007

Is it just me or does it suck muchly when things are going well and then take a bad turn, just, it seems like, to screw with you? I mean, it could all be good one day, but by the next evening, you're well on the way downhill and there's nothing you can do about it. This past week or so for me has had a plentiful amount of moments like that, and to be honest, I really hate it.

I thought I was finally getting somewhere with my writing after being out of commission for so long, and I even posted the first part of my new fic up, but now I'm back where I was before! After reading and re-reading the first section, I've discovered I'm not actually that satisfied with it, but I'm not entirely sure why. And because of that, I can't seem to motivate myself to pick up a pen - ok, open the word document on my laptop - and continue the next part. I sort of hate myself for it - it bugs me to all hell that I'm stuck in a rut again so soon after starting something new, especially when I have these ideas roaming about my head, but I really don't know what to do. I have this cartoon image of beating my head with a stick, piƱata style, just to see how the ideas fall out and so they end up being used, but somehow I doubt it'd work as well in real life. Darn.

On the upside, the Can't Stop The Serenity screening I'm organising seems to be shaping up! Leaflets and posters are pretty much sorted so all I have to do now is get a butt-load of them printed and share 'em out between everyone who said they'd help distribute them (I love you all, by the way). I started ordering prizes for the raffle we're having (Amazon and Ebay are my friends), and I picked up the prize donation from our first confirmed sponsor last week too, so that gave me a big happy. I think I'll start phoning around the rest of the sponsors I sent letters to tomorrow - a week should have been plenty of time for them to think about whether they want to take part or not. And if it's not, tough crap. I'm all for giving managers/companies a bit of notice before bombarding them with requests, but if they're not going to get back to me themselves, then they can sure as hell expect me to get in touch with them. Umm, but yeah, before I rant too much about that, everything seems to be going well so far! *touch wood* Watch this space for more news.

Speaking of news - I was more than a bit gutted when I heard about Drive. Even thinking about it now makes me feel depressed and safe to say, very, very angry. Hearing the name FOX usually leads to colourful, sweary type sentences about its executives, and a list of sadistic ways to hurt them. Not that it didn't before, but even more so now. Hey, I'm not the only one, so don't judge! I just don't understand what their problem is - so apparently, it didn't grab enough ratings, but it was barely on the air for THREE weeks, give it a fucking chance! Did I hear right about the blackout in some of the States for one of those weeks, and the fact that FOX aired one episode on a Sunday night, then the following episode the next again day? Well done you money-hungry wankers, once again you screwed over your own show without really giving it a chance to impact. I also wish pain upon the American audience who decided Dancing with the Stars was worth their watching time - you suck. And what really gets to me about the whole thing (apart from the fact that the viewers just got shit all over) is how the cast and crew must be feeling, specifically Nathan Fillion and Tim Minear. Just walk away guys, and don't look back - you're worth more. I end this with a hearty and venom-fuelled FUCK YOU FOX!!!

Ok, happy news - I came home from uni one day this past week to find a package addressed to me on the dining room table. The writing on the label was familiar, and I thought back to a few days before that when I'd gotten a text from (my dear friend) Vez, asking me my t-shirt size. I told her and wondered why, but she'd refused to reveal anything, and so I'd kinda forgotten about it. Until then. "Vez" was my immediate thought as I opened the envelope and spotted a cottony object, and sure enough, there was a note from her in there too - "saw this and thought of you". It was a "Joss Whedon Is My Master Now" t-shirt. I swear to God, I didn't think it was possible for me to love this girl any more than I already do, but apparently so. She is a total LEGEND.

Just to make sure that I'm not in a good mood for too long, I'm hit with random reminders of looming uni deadlines and exams. I'm seriously dreading the exams especially, because everything I know about my modules this semester, I could fit on the palm of my hand, and I've never been the type who handles exams well, so I see this going really badly. I'm kicking myself now for not using the Easter holidays as well as I could have to write notes and things, but I shouldn't be too surprised, seeing as I'm the damned Master of Procrastination. Not a position you want to be in, believe me. I think I'm just going to have to wing it and worry about results and failure nearer the time that it matters. I can't describe how much I'm looking forward to 1st of June, and the start of our summer holidays. Four months off uni and all that time to just chill and do crap all? Bring it.

Blog/rant over.


Wednesday, May 2, 2007 3:29 PM


Let's see if I can't drop my 2 bits of platinum here;D

Re: your tale...at least you actually had something written and you posted it, Wynter. I have a lot of ideas floating around my brain, but no motivation to actually sit down any time soon and write them out. Maybe it's fear and maybe it's laziness...but my desire to write is strangely frozen:(

FOX execs are utter morons and should be stoned...but sadly, to do so is a crime under American law. More's the pity>:(

And congrats on the shirt! I got me one of those tees and it rocks the big one;D


Monday, April 30, 2007 8:50 AM




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