Post thanksgiving break blues
Tuesday, November 28, 2006

I'm not even sure that I should be putting this here, but I'm feeling really down after thanksgiving.

Sure, it was nice to go home and see the family, but now I just feel kinda empty inside. I'm back at school, and everything is crazy because there's only two weeks until finals. But I can't focus. In the quiet moments when there's nothing distracting me from my own thoughts, I just want to cry, scream, do something to show some sort of emotion, but I can't. It's like I'm numb inside. I almost wonder if what I feel is loneliness, from being with family and friends and then going back to school where I am completely and utterly alone, but at the same time, I know it isn't. As awful as it sounds, I'm used to loneliness. I'm alone for 8 months out of the year. And yet at the same time, I'm surrounded by people.

Why can't I just be happy? Why do I have such an inability to meet people out here? As River says, "What am I?" I don't know what I'm saying......I never know what I'm saying.


Wednesday, November 29, 2006 8:32 AM


Yes. This is a common feeling I'm sure. I have this theory (this is serious) that if you listen to any three Bob Marley songs right in a row, without thinking about anything but the music and the lyrics, you will feel, at the very least, just a little bit better. It sounds wierd, but trust me. If you're at college, like me, then somebody is bound to have a Marley CD.

Marley during finals week = good vibes.

Tuesday, November 28, 2006 9:51 AM


Yep...definitely know that feeling quite well:(

Have you thought about seeing a counsellor (if you school has some?) for possible personal issues? I am seeing a couple for various things and they are a great resource to have. Lots of confidential chatting and sounding board moments. Trust me when I say that while it seems mortifying to admit - even to oneself - that you might need that kind of assistance...it's a boon of the highest order;)

And like msg said...you got us. We'll carry ya as far as you need to go to get back in the game of life:D


Tuesday, November 28, 2006 5:36 AM


Hey ..we're standing right here hon BIG HUGS...I know it's not the same, but we are here with you:) As for the making friends thing. Have you tried joining any clubs? Might find one that interests you and then at least you'd have something in common with the others in the club. Or you could start a Firefly club and see how many new browncoats you can make.I'm sure your school shows movies on campus and if you could get them to show Serenity and have a sign up sheet for a meeting for anyone who loved it, might work:) Whatever happens though, we're here and we love you

Tuesday, November 28, 2006 1:43 AM


I understand exactly how you feel.Remember that this too shall pass.And you're not alone. You have one big amazing Browncoat famiily right here.


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