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Lilianna

More pressure sucks...
Friday, April 30, 2004

So how about I just found out that the last two girls in my area of curriculum are leaving after this year?! That's means more pressure and stress. They weren't kidding when they rated my school as second in the country for most stressful. But dude, I'm so tired of just dreading the going to one particular class because it just feels like no matter how hard I try and bust my ass or how much time I put into it, I just suck at it.

Man I freaking hate being in a class with Grad students. I feel like I don't belong and that's my major, not theirs. You would think it would help having people that are so far along, but apparently not for me. I just feel so terribly intimidated.

Fine. I admit I procratinate really bad for that class, but just the meer thought of how much all my time and effort is going to be for naught but a hell of a lot more work ahead, as well as thinking I got it, and learning I don't really hurts. I should have gone into Drama. I miss that and just performing in general. But I need the degree. And I really do like my major, I just hate being broken down seemingly all the time...

Goddess, I need a trip to the beach! Because this really sucks.

PS: for anyone who just read this. don't mind me. I only REALLY needed to vent or spend the rest of the day in tears. THanks for listening. School is a thorn in my side at the moment.

so school.

COMMENTS

Tuesday, May 4, 2004 11:23 AM

LILIANNA


I just wanted to thank you for all of your comments. It's helped more than you know. I will stick it out.

Friday, April 30, 2004 2:20 PM

JEBBYPAL


Lil,
hang in there! Coming from a graduate student, half the time we're just as confused as you are! I'm sure they're just jealous that you are so much further ahead than they were at your age!

If you like your major, stick w/ the class - it will be over and I assume does not encompass everything that your major. School sucks, but I bet in five years or so you'll actually think fondly of the work you used to do (be it for the intellectual stimulation or what).

Good luck and the next time a grad student get's snotty, just imagine them as the bad guy getting kicked into the engine!

Friday, April 30, 2004 1:44 PM

AERONSTORM


I understtnad, 'cept I'm a middle school special ed teacher - - - - -the end of the year can't come soon enough!



Plus, I'm gonna have a hangover tomorrow from drinking with three of the other teachers tonight......grrr.

Stress sucks!!!!

Friday, April 30, 2004 11:35 AM

SHINY


Lil!!!!



Hang in there, browncoat! It'll get better! Take a little break, watch a DVD or two, go out for a walk in the park to clear your mind, then buckle down. You'll get through this. You've got obstacles in your path, and you'll overcome them, one at a time. You will. Cappy said so. ;)

Friday, April 30, 2004 10:54 AM

STATIC


Lil . ..

You just hang in there and do your best, because I know you'll rock at it.

You're in that school because you were good enough to get in.

I know you can do this, and I know that once you get re-focused. . .you'll blow the doors off the place.

Lili Static

Friday, April 30, 2004 7:29 AM

PHOTURISPYRALIS


Hey Lilianna,

I totally know how you feel, but there's nothing you can do but hang in there and just try to focus on one thing at a time, get that done, then move on to the next thing.

There are plenty of times I'm ready to just say F it and give up, but somehow I manage to make it through the day, so that I can begin all over the next day.

> I just hate being broken down seemingly all the time...

Yeah, I know. I feel like that a lot. I suck too. Or maybe I just think I do. I dunno, I'm just really really burned out.

But I'm right there with ya kid, so don't worry about how badly you think you're doing, just gather yourself together and keep flyin'. It ain't much, but hopefully it'll be enough.

:)

Photuris pyralis


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