I agree with everyone here EA. We all have our up days and our down days. I do hope you take the advice from your fellow Browncoats a have a chat with someone about your depression. Believe me the talking helps a lot. We all care about you EA and we want you to see you be your happy, cheerful self again. * bear huggles EA triple tight*

EA, thanks for directing me to you D*C blogs. I enjoyed reading them. I am considering a trip to D*C next year.

Unfortunately, I was sad to read you blog from yesterday. We all have bad terrible depressing days. Don't even think about feeling quilty about it. There will always be others that are worse off, but we have to think of our own well being before we can help others. I'm hoping that you are feeling better today, but if not, you can always send me an e-mail at arcadianlc@gmail.com . Sometimes it just helps to talk about it.

Just because someone else had it "worse" doesn't make your pain less real or valid. If you are struggling then that is very serious and there's nothing wrong with complaining or getting a shoulder to lean on!!! You can have mine any time HUGS
Email me at oncemorewithfeeling321@yahoo.com any time and rant away I'm always glad to listen!

You said depressed again. If you've been in that headspace before, you know it may take more than a "snap out of it" to..well, snap you out of it.
We all handle stress differently. Some of us just seem to take whatever life throws at us without batting an eyelash, others not so much. Most of us are somewhere in the middle.
I am always comforted in the knowledge that if I stopped to compare my life to that of others I am in very good shape. That sounds really bad, but it's sort of looking at it as "could be worse".
If you're experiencing an imbalance in your serotonin levels (due to SAD or an exacerbation of a depressive state) you really will want to seek professional medical help. Sometimes it's situational and they can give you a medication to take for a while until the crisis is passed and life no longer sucks, sometimes you need to try something longer term.
It's the feeling sick and like lying down and not getting up part that has me worried. That sounds like more than just a deep existential funk. If increasing your sunlight exposure (try full spectrum bulbs if you can't get the real deal) by a couple of hours a day doesn't help, talk to someone.
Sometimes just talking things out and having someone else point out a solution to a problem that you hadn't thought of is enough.
If not, get help. Quickly if possible. Clinical depression can really mess up your life by getting you into a state where you make less than optimal decisions and screw yourself over.
In the meanwhile take two virtual hugs and write us if it doesn't get better. Or if it does!

EA have you ever considered maybe it's not you? There is a disorder that becomes more prevalent during the fall and winter months S.A.D. or Seasonal Affective Disorder. Caused by lack of proper sunlight.

If not, just try and let the small things slide. You are you and nobody else. And that, above anything else, is something to hold your head up about.

I'm calling myself a hypocrite after telling you that, because I'm one of those people that CANNOT accept the things I cannot change and there are times when I get so wound up inside all I want to do is stand in the middle of my back field and scream at the stars.

But then tommorow comes, the world hasn't stopped turning and a brand new day is born.

As I said before, chin up kiddo. Square your sholders, face it head on and show it you are NOT afraid.

I have always believed that whatever is eating at you is just as bad as whatever is eating at someone else. I have found myself in a period of massive emotional upheaval, and the crossroads I am at looks like a scene from the Road Warrior. I may be on a course to wreck two families to give birth to one anew. That's as bad as I've got, but it's no worse than your feelings, because you are the one living out your worst, not me.

When I found I was a fuckin' train wreck in my head, when I couldn't crawl anymore, one of the Browncoats out here carried me. It made a bigger difference than I can describe. So let this Browncoat know if you need a ride on his shoulder, ok?