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Jeshikat

Ъ I see red, I see Red, I see RED Ъ
Monday, March 13, 2006

Before I start - just so you all know, that those little symbols (Ъ) are the closest things I could find to musical notes LOL!

Okee dokee... Thank you sOo much for all your emails and thoughts... and hugs :) I have just read them and I have the biggest grin!!!
<--- and that doesn't even do it justice!!!

I'm back in Sydney - kinda regretting coming back... Something just doesn't feel right anymore;
Brisbane - A group of people are always there to meet me at the airport.
Sydney - If I'm lucky (which is rare), one person is there to pick me up...

And I got really cranky! Like I had to make my own way home (and when I had to leave for Brisbane, NO-ONE offered to take me!) - picture this:
I have a bag (with wheels) that is just under 20kgs - I think that is around 40lbs for those of you playing at home ;) - I then had 2 hand bags, and then 2 more bags to carry on.
HOW BULKY!!! It was sOo hard to walk that I kept crying on the way there and home... It had already been an emotional week for me and to make matters worse, I stubbed my toe on my bag while I was trying to make my way outta the train! It is sOo bad!!! So, on one big toe I have an ingrown and on the other biggy is stubbed!!
AND! I'm trying to grow my nails, which I chipped!!! (I'm wearing red nail polish and this was meant to be about that LOL! But you lucky readers are now reading my angry rant - I'm literally seeing red!)

I'm just so hurt! No one is even giving me a reason to stay - I mean yeh, I had a MASSIVE fight with my brother the day of my flight and that wouldn't of helped my mood but GORRAM!!!!!

I guess another reason I want to move up there, is because of my Dad's new girl... I know it's expected that I won't like her, but I tried! I really did! But I hate giving and giving and giving and then not getting anything back - I'm not greedy, I like being appreciated, is what I'm trying to say...

Back onto the lady - My dad is V. Naïve when it comes to the laaaaadies, he was just really lucky that my Mum was the person she was! But this chick gives me the jeebers, it's kinda like, would she be with my Dad if he still had the kind of money he has now? And like Dad takes her out on dates but for some reason something always went wrong, kinda like - someone was late or they were booked out or didn't serve the food she liked and she would get really angry at Dad about this... it's like DUDE!!! He is taking YOU out!!! Be grateful!

Man... I'm gonna stop now - it's not healthy LOL! And I don't want to start my morning like that.

Thanks for letting me vent, everyone :) and again thank you sOo much for your emails and hugs - I really appreciated them... I missed you all too (just in case I don't get around to writing personally, I will but it might not be today) and it's great to be back with the greatest people in the 'verse!

I love you ALL!
Jessica
xXxXx

COMMENTS

Monday, March 13, 2006 6:33 PM

BLUEEYEDBRIGADIER


Add my heartfelt sympathies to the pile and imagine giant basket of your favourite candies and comforts appearing out of nowhere for ya to ease your obvious pains.

Honestly, I wouldn't know how to handle myself if I was my parents weren't together and I had to meet and (possibly) play nice with the new girlfriend/boyfriend of the parent. I would probably do like you did and just try my damnedest to get along with the person, but I would have been a bit more "Look....I have done my best to get along, but I cannot accept or comprehend their behaviour" and "Sad as it is to say, I have serious questions about this new person in your life. I want you to be happy, but I just feel that there's a personality clash that's beeing overlooked."

Just remember: you don't get to choose who your family is, but you have all the choice of who you're friends with. Be supportive of your da and all that, but don't push yourself to let things slide just to maintain peace...it eventually bites ya in the bum really nicely ;)

BEB

Monday, March 13, 2006 1:39 PM

ASARIAN


My dear Jessica,

'Twas hard to read your blog without feeling immensely sad for you. :( Stuff that used to be between the lines, now oozes out at every turn. To leave you alone, with all your baggage to carry, emotional and otherwise, is there anyone in your family who even remotely cares for you?? :( But I totally broke down when I got to the last paragraph. Is this not astounding? You, my dear friend, so in need of but the slightest token of affection, or minimal token of appreciation, what is the first thing you do when you come home? You apologize, in advance, for not being able to write back all of us at once! And so, again, what's in-between the lines wins out, by far, to what you actually wrote in them! See, you can write about giving and giving; and this saddens me, because you get so little back; and it makes me happy to know you... because you get so little back! But what you simply ARE, and what you cannot ever hide being, that just radiates out of your blog! We have a well-know, and highly appropriate, word here to describe what you are: shiny!

See, this is the sorta thing I always talk about in my own blog. Why I have hope. I read your blog, and I know humanity, as a species, will make it. And you know why? The first rule of flying! Because you have Love! If you do all the math in the ‘verse, you'll find the 'verse should really be collapsing on itself, because there's no "logical" reason for you to be so giving when you receive so little. Don't make no sense. And yet you are! I think that's what Mal meant, when he said: "Love keeps her in the air when she autta fall down."

*hugs and love*

Monday, March 13, 2006 12:39 PM

COPILOT


Glad to have you back darling. Sorry about all the suckage.

Monday, March 13, 2006 12:32 PM

TAYEATRA


*Hugs Jessica*

Just keep flyin'


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